Tag Archives: deconversion

Losing Faith

Posted on April 8, 2014 by beholdconfusion

I was twenty one when I realized I no longer believed in God. It was the summer between my junior and senior year of college.  I was living in a tiny, hot one room apartment with my fiance.  I remember … Continue reading →

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Slouching Towards Hell

Posted on January 25, 2013 by beholdconfusion

Both sects of Christianity I was part of believed in a literal hell.  I did too, for a while.  But I always had a hard time imagining actual people in the fiery pits.  Hitler, yes, and maybe the villains from … Continue reading →

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How Great is the Love

Posted on January 11, 2013 by beholdconfusion

There are many embarrassing confessions I could make on this blog.  This is one: I listen to Christian music radio stations.  Not in the past, when I was a Christian, but now, even earlier today.  Why do I do this? … Continue reading →

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A New Interpretation of Old Experiences

Posted on September 5, 2012 by beholdconfusion

One of the things you will notice, if you ever have the strange experience of losing a set of deeply held beliefs, is that, at some point, you realize your old experiences are still valid.  When they stopped meaning what … Continue reading →

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An Apology

Posted on August 26, 2012 by beholdconfusion

I keep up on all the embarrassing things happening in the Christian world these days.  I see how entire organizations exist to frustrate the attempts of women to live their lives normally, to deny civil rights to various minority groups, … Continue reading →

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Wendell Berry and My Atheist Revelation

Posted on August 20, 2012 by beholdconfusion

Wendell Berry values the good life.  He values it enough to stop and ask, “What is it, this good life?  And in what ways can I strive for it?”  His answers are simple, but uncommon. In farming: nurturing the life-giving … Continue reading →

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All or Nuthin’

Posted on August 13, 2012 by beholdconfusion

I like to argue, no, I love to argue.  My six –nature leads me to find all sorts of opportunities to set myself against opposing forces.  I listen to Rush Limbaugh and to Catholic radio.  I watch the Daily Show … Continue reading →

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An Open Letter to Drew Dyck of Christianity Today

Posted on July 31, 2012 by beholdconfusion

This article appeared in November of 2010 on Christianity Today‘s website about the generation of young people who seem to be leaving the “church” en masse.  You should go and read it now if you haven’t had the chance yet. … Continue reading →

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